a special email I received from my mama

BEFORE I WAS A MUM

Before I was a Mum.....

I slept as late as I wanted

I never worried about how late I got into bed

I brushed my hair and my teeth everyday

Before I was a Mum.....

I cleaned my house each day

I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a nursery rhyme

I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous

I never thought about immunizations

Before I was a Mum.....

I had never been spewed on

Poohed on

Spat on

Chewed on

Peed on

I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts

I slept all night

Before I was a Mum.....

I never held down a screaming child so that doctors could do tests

Or give an injection

I never looked into teary eyes and cried

I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin

I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep

Before I was a Mum.....

I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put it down

I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt

I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much

I never knew that I could love someone so much

I never knew I would love being a Mum

Before I was a Mum.....

I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body

I didn't know how special it could feel to feed a hungry baby

I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child

I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy

Before I was a Mum.....

I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to make sure all was okay

I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mum

I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mum

And before I became Nanna.....

I didn't know that all those 'Mum' feelings more than doubled!